Unexpectedly Moment on Sunday

Long time not share the story here, my digital notebook, hehehe...

I just wanna share the funny moment which happened on Sunday, 9 August 2015 in the Saint Robertus Bellarminus Catholic Church, East Jakarta, I call funny because that was unexpectedly story for me, moreover, it seems like the kind of fiction story to be comes true :D

So there was a guy (a man) in Church who seems like unusual action I guess since at begun, i do not know whats happening..
He started to took attention to me and I just did not care about it because I though that was only the kidding of a man as usual. But suddenly at the end, he was comes to us (with me & some of my friends) and just said Happy Sunday guys beside nobody of us knowing him, for a moment I though he might be know each other with one of my friends but the fact whereas, Oh my God, just stuck and my mind was blur and speechless, who is that?? what he is doing? even we do not know who he is..

Hahahahahahah...
we just laugh together and that was so really funny, and beside that the man wear the same color shirts with me (purple) so my friends took laugh at me due to that, they even said me seems like a couple with that a man, ohhhh nooo.. :/
and you know when he was come to us, he asked my name to my friends which said "What is her name the girl who wear purple dress?" but it did not over, after that, at the front of Church the young Catholic community of Saint Robertus Bellarminus made the event to looking for a fund, when that occasion happened, unexpectation again, that man stand out to singing at the stage by singing home by Michael Bubble and we just seen that the singer was him, and we laughed for more times..

Ohhhh that moments is so really cozy and so much funny at all.. even till now i could not yet forget about that.
For me personally it seems like one of the crazy imagination to be happened at the real life, I though that kind moment could only found at the fiction but the fact it does not right at all, some the impossible story could be happens and I just aware about it.

It makes me more believe that if He Will (The Almighty God), all the impossible things could be comes true, no one things could not be happened if He willing it gonna be happens.

So grateful every moments of my life is always be based on His Will and I hope it always be..

Friday Story

Dear friends,

It was long time to share story here, anyway this time I just wanna write I have felt so far for at least 2 months I worked as civil service agency at BKN, East Jakarta.

You know, I never dream to be a worker in government institution at all, however, my destiny said others, and I could not changed cause it was happened. But I do not want story about it, I mean telling far about how could be as or not.

Anyway, I have to confess that there are still so much problems regarding to our bureaucracy which quite difficult to be solved moreover it seems like no solutions to be found. May be you asked, how i could said that, but I think we all know about it and no need to explain further. According to above, as a worker who to be payed by country, it so bad to found such a fact, sometimes I confused to so many rules which to be made by government but some of them have not yet well done, even blur at all. But I do not mention any of them.

By realizing such a fact i mention above, I asking my self how much biggest the part of civil service agency to make it better, at least they are not only have the identity as workers for government and society but also could give contributes such as forces themselves to be a high-quality both knowledge and attitude, however not only worked straightly. So much bad views of them by society, such as non-qualified workers, the people who only spent much budgets, who do not have an quality, even they always be compared to private workers who known so much better. Then many get underestimate to them and so on.

I just become a civil service agency since March 2014 and before that I have worked in private institution which has a high-profile. By knowing those facts makes me felt down and thought all those true or some were may not be.
But I do not want to be the part of civil service unqualified and useless point of views, even though now i am surrounded some of such a kind like that, it does not mean i should to be, whereas, i need to demand my self not to follow somewhat which must not to be imitated, i am willing to be a good workers and pursue my goal then rally the whole of ability to serve either to country and society. This is my goal and hopefully God always give me a strenght to throught it cause i am aware it never be easy to make it happens and doing well, that always be obstacles and i won't give up.

I HOPE SO!!!

June, 19 th 2015/Desi Handayani Sagala

Doa Anak Negeri

66 tahun sudah kami menjalankan hidup di atas nama Merdeka, tapi Engkau tau bahwa kehiupan Bangsa ini belumlah seharum yang sepatutnya.

Kisah-kisah yang tak layak masih menjadi cerminan Negeri,
aku tau masih hanya protes yang bisa ku berikan, bukannya belajar untuk membawa Bangsa ini maju ke depan.

Bahkan tak ingin menyia-nyiakan keringat yang tlah tertumpah dahulu untuk dapat mencapai kebebasan seperti sekarang.

Tapi masa lalu adalah awal, masa kini adalah hasil sementara, dan esok adalah tugas.

KepadaMu ku berharap penuh, untuk Indonesia yang baru tumbuh.
Sebagai kaum muda dan pewaris Negeri kiranya kami bersatu, bukan untuk saling mengadu mulut. Sebaliknya, menggunakan mata, hati, dan prestasi untuk melepaskan Bangsa dari kecamuk.

Aku cinta Indonesia dan ini doaku

Deasy Sagala
17 Agustus 2011 pukul 11:14

What do you expect as a civil servant agency?

Being a civil servant is never become my dream job since I was taken a school and begun to created my future goal. Otherwise, when somebody asked me about the reason which made me taken a civil servant test, I haven’t yet found an answer because I have never think about it before.

If I am asked what do I think about civil servant and is it enough better for nowdays. I could not said that it was already well done because I personally have to confess that there are still much problems regarding to civil servant quality both personally and skill-knowledge. So many opinions stated that our civil servant are useless and non-qualified workers and so on.

Those made me less respect about civil servant, even when I usually seen most of them are less productivity and tend to just worked without by having a working-purposed. But I believe that beside such as problems which I mention above, there are still some  civil servant whose really have a good attitude and knowledge.

And now, when I am being as a civil servant, all of those hesitations and troubles seem like hit me and force me to answer by myself. The judges which I have gotten about civil servant become a challenge for me personally.

Thank to Almighty God, due to Him I could get a good chance to be one of the winners of BKN (Badan Kepegawaian Negara) civil service agency on 2014. I realized that so many others willing to take it and I am so grateful could be the part of BKN family. Particularly, it was done through the real competition. This is my first time to taken a test and so suprising to knowing that I was be choosed after through some steps or I called as the real competition.

Then now, I am asked myself, what do you purpose as a civil servant?
By realizing that question, I challenge myself to be a qualified either a good character or skill-knowledges which I using to be a better generation. It is quite difficult at all.

April, 13th 2015

Just taken time to realize and I found that I already walked away from Him.

There were so much blessed I got, It should be to praise and worship Him.

Usually, I remember Him when I felt down and it was wrong at all. I know it but I did not care about it.

I am so crazy when I left Your Way in me.
I though that I was so a good human, not at all.
However, I am only sinner who did not aware His Love for me, even that was rarelly to said thank for all those bless.

And tonight, I am asking my self, do u really Love and Believe in Him? If yes, why it so hard for you to come to Him and discuss your life to Him. If not, why u said by your mouth that you are reedemed by Jesus Christ? 

Jesus love us purely and moreover He said us by calling "Friendship" even we are never become to be.

But, I always need You, my Savior.
I won't promise anything cause I am only sinner and it does not changed as long as I life by according to my own mind and hearth.

(Deasy Sagala)✌

"If you Judge People You Have No Time to Love Them"

I really like this quote "If you Judges People You Have No Time to Love Them"
It seems like a mirror for me personaly, I mean so easily for us to take a negative perspective to others. Even the people whom we do not know well.
The quote above represent my experience recently in my working place. I already worked for 2 weeks and there were some quite difficult moments. For instance, I have to face the patners who tend to looking for others' fault and if so, it will be bigger to much by themselves. But I do not mean to story about it, otherwise, I only excited to tell about these quote because it must be happens to us. I through not really good day in office, so much new things and new people, thus much more character to face. But it is not fair if I take a conclusion fastly, whoever know what happen next.

In other case, all the things in my new office was suprised for me personally cause those are out of my expectation.
It could be I have taken too high expectation, could be!
I do not want to guess whatever next honestly, that's only make me too tired..

I wanna to learn to be better human, I believe all the best starting from the little acts.
"Do the little things with the Great Love" said Mother Theresa
I realize it seems like impossible hopes and others tend to make it become such a kidding or joke. I just wanna do all part my life by surrender to My Father Blessing God.
It is not EASY to be human being like God Willing, but I believe He does not asking us to be perfect, cause we never to be it. Otherwise, by all of our weakness we should let God to being us as His children who always need Him anything happens.

This morning I feel His Love, there are so piece and happiness throughout of mine.
Suddenly it remains me about all my faults recent that I did for this week, so much judges, negative perspective, less gratefully, and only said problems.
These made me aware that I much really only based on ego, human ego without looking at His Willing.
I should not to think of, Those were only makes me being stupid man, feel less grateful and blind to see His path which should be happened to me.

I am willing to live happier as His Will, not such a happy like mine.
Hopefully I wish I could life my dreams and purposes. I wanna to be human being who not only life for material and lifestyle. Otherwise, who life to others such as be a source of happy for others life and share all the things which I could hand out, then treat others by loves and cares regardless their background, social class, religion, races, culture and nations.

I believe that to be happier human being, it begins by ourselves firstly. We do not need to ask others to be changes themselves.
It does not mean we wish could changes this world cause it seems like non sense. I personally think, it is only begin by our own surroundings.
For instance, acts our life as if it gonna be the end of life.

All the words above are my own pray and big hopes. I wish I could doing it everyday and through life as well as His Will.
As long as I could breath, I am willing to build my dreams and looking for the real my purposes to life.
As commonly said, we only life for one time and it such a stupid human if only life without make it means.
Life is seems like an empty paper which is written by a good story or not, depend on the actor, and as an actor who is directed by Father Blessing God, it should be that we only doing as appropriate His scenario. Thus, I just doing my roles based upon Him, I hopefully so because basically we are a child of God and we are only His creation who have so much weakness and absolutely we are the sinners till the end of life. By His amazing love, we are saved and to be glorious human being and it never be changed. I LOVE YOU MY FATHER GOD :)

Mengapa Jokowi???

Pertanyan ini seketika memuncak ketika juru bicara tim sukses capres no 2 sekaligus tokoh politik idola saya, bapak Anies Baswedan mengemukakan kalimat ini sebagai bagian dari argumennya. Ketika pertanyaan itu saya tujukan kepada diri sendiri, sungguh itu adalah sebuah pertanyaan yg luar biasa sekaligus sulit. Mengapa sulit? Karna sejujurnya saya tidak pernah menjadi salah satu warga sipil di bawah kepemimpinan bapak Jokowi, jadi otomatis saya belum pernah sekalipun merasakan dampak positif dr beliau.

Ketika KPU mengumumkan 2 pasangan capres yg akan maju di pilpres 2014, awalnya saya tidak tertarik karna jujur tidak satu pun dari keduanya merupakan tokoh politik yg saya kagumi, ya memang tidak tepat kalau saya hanya berpikir secara subjektif.  Walaupun di lain sisi, saya sempat tertarik dengan sosok bapak gubernur DKI Jakarta bapak Jokowidodo tetapi saya bukanlah pendukung partai beliau, itu yg membuat saya agak ragu untuk memilih beliau, apalagi tersebar isu bahwa beliau hanyalah alat dr keinginan orang2 yg ada di belakangnya. Sesaat setelah isu tersebut beredar saya sempat memutuskan untuk tidak memilih siapapun.

Setelah meyaksikan kerja keras kampanye, imbauan dan debat capres sebanyak 5 kali tersebut, saya mulai melihat ada hal yg istimewa pd pilpres 2014 ini, saya melihat bahwa rakyat yg membawa calon pemimpinnya bukan calon pemimpin yg berusaha utk membeli suara rakyat. Begitu banyak masyarakat yg membentuk tim relawan buat beliau, melakukan dgn sepenuh hati tidak terkecuali golongan apapun. Awalnya saya kira hanya orang kecil yg akan memilih beliau karna dy memang sosok yg dekat dgn kaum yg dianggap beban negara, tetapi berjalannya waktu, semua kelompok baik itu dr kaum pendidik sampai penghibur mendeklarasikan dukungannya terhadap beliau. Suatu kalimat "pemimpin rakyat lahir dari rakyat" kalau tidak salah, menjadi kalimat pamungkas yg mulai meruntuhkan kenetralaan saya sebagai warga negara, terlebih melalui media sosial baik televisi maupun internet, ketika memperhatikan dari sisi style kedua calon, saya lebih sejalan dengan sosok beliau yg sederhana dan mampu menjadi pendengar, bahkan bisa bergaul dgn semua kalangan. Gaya blusukannya yg sering dapat cemooh dr sekolompok tertentu sejujurnya memang terlihat natural dan memang seperti itulah yg biasa beliau lakukan. Hal itu terlihat kontras ketika cawapres dr no urut 1 blusukan ke pasaran, terlihat kaku dan penuh dgn setingan, sebaiknya bapak tersebut lbh jujur aja, tidak usah memaksakan diri demi kekuasaan melakukan hal yg tidak pernah dilakukan.

Contoh kecil seperti itu saja membuat saya yakin dengan pilihan saya sekarang, bahwa memang niatan orang baik harus memperoleh dukungan penuh, jarang ada orang baik yg mau terlibat dgn tanggung jawab besar yg dikelilingi oleh banyak musuh.

Kesederhanaan beliau telah memenangkan hati saya secara pribadi sebagai warga negara, sosok yg natural dan sering dikatakan "ndeso" itulah yg membuat beliau terlihat berkarisma. Seringkali kemampuan orasi beliau dijadikan bahan olok2an oleh tim tetangga sebagai kelemahan terbesar beliau bahkan sampai membawa kemampuan bahasa asing beliau. Pilihan kata sederhana yg beliau perlihatkan yg justru memperlihatkan kejujuran yg memang ditujukan hingga kalangan tidak terdidik, bukan sekadar pilihan kata yg bernuansa high class yg sepertinya tidak semua dapat diserap dan seperti biasannya hanya menawarkan "teori kesejahteraan" belaka. Saya suka beliau dgn cara pandang gagasannya, dgn singkat beliau utarakan "kerja kerja kerja"

Semakin yakin 100% bahkan ini kai pertama saya benar2 yakin dgn pilihan pemimpin saya. Belum pernah seexcited ini untuj menggunakan hak suara saya kepada beliau untuk Indonesia hebat.

#ramepilih2 #Jokowi9juli #salam2jari #salamdemokrasi

Semoga pesta demokrasi yg akan disongsong beberapa jam ke depan diberkati oleh Tuhan, hingga dapat berjalan dgn damai dan lancar dan dijauhkan dr tindak kecurangan, Amin!!!!