Doa Anak Negeri

66 tahun sudah kami menjalankan hidup di atas nama Merdeka, tapi Engkau tau bahwa kehiupan Bangsa ini belumlah seharum yang sepatutnya.

Kisah-kisah yang tak layak masih menjadi cerminan Negeri,
aku tau masih hanya protes yang bisa ku berikan, bukannya belajar untuk membawa Bangsa ini maju ke depan.

Bahkan tak ingin menyia-nyiakan keringat yang tlah tertumpah dahulu untuk dapat mencapai kebebasan seperti sekarang.

Tapi masa lalu adalah awal, masa kini adalah hasil sementara, dan esok adalah tugas.

KepadaMu ku berharap penuh, untuk Indonesia yang baru tumbuh.
Sebagai kaum muda dan pewaris Negeri kiranya kami bersatu, bukan untuk saling mengadu mulut. Sebaliknya, menggunakan mata, hati, dan prestasi untuk melepaskan Bangsa dari kecamuk.

Aku cinta Indonesia dan ini doaku

Deasy Sagala
17 Agustus 2011 pukul 11:14

What do you expect as a civil servant agency?

Being a civil servant is never become my dream job since I was taken a school and begun to created my future goal. Otherwise, when somebody asked me about the reason which made me taken a civil servant test, I haven’t yet found an answer because I have never think about it before.

If I am asked what do I think about civil servant and is it enough better for nowdays. I could not said that it was already well done because I personally have to confess that there are still much problems regarding to civil servant quality both personally and skill-knowledge. So many opinions stated that our civil servant are useless and non-qualified workers and so on.

Those made me less respect about civil servant, even when I usually seen most of them are less productivity and tend to just worked without by having a working-purposed. But I believe that beside such as problems which I mention above, there are still some  civil servant whose really have a good attitude and knowledge.

And now, when I am being as a civil servant, all of those hesitations and troubles seem like hit me and force me to answer by myself. The judges which I have gotten about civil servant become a challenge for me personally.

Thank to Almighty God, due to Him I could get a good chance to be one of the winners of BKN (Badan Kepegawaian Negara) civil service agency on 2014. I realized that so many others willing to take it and I am so grateful could be the part of BKN family. Particularly, it was done through the real competition. This is my first time to taken a test and so suprising to knowing that I was be choosed after through some steps or I called as the real competition.

Then now, I am asked myself, what do you purpose as a civil servant?
By realizing that question, I challenge myself to be a qualified either a good character or skill-knowledges which I using to be a better generation. It is quite difficult at all.

April, 13th 2015

Just taken time to realize and I found that I already walked away from Him.

There were so much blessed I got, It should be to praise and worship Him.

Usually, I remember Him when I felt down and it was wrong at all. I know it but I did not care about it.

I am so crazy when I left Your Way in me.
I though that I was so a good human, not at all.
However, I am only sinner who did not aware His Love for me, even that was rarelly to said thank for all those bless.

And tonight, I am asking my self, do u really Love and Believe in Him? If yes, why it so hard for you to come to Him and discuss your life to Him. If not, why u said by your mouth that you are reedemed by Jesus Christ? 

Jesus love us purely and moreover He said us by calling "Friendship" even we are never become to be.

But, I always need You, my Savior.
I won't promise anything cause I am only sinner and it does not changed as long as I life by according to my own mind and hearth.

(Deasy Sagala)✌

"If you Judge People You Have No Time to Love Them"

I really like this quote "If you Judges People You Have No Time to Love Them"
It seems like a mirror for me personaly, I mean so easily for us to take a negative perspective to others. Even the people whom we do not know well.
The quote above represent my experience recently in my working place. I already worked for 2 weeks and there were some quite difficult moments. For instance, I have to face the patners who tend to looking for others' fault and if so, it will be bigger to much by themselves. But I do not mean to story about it, otherwise, I only excited to tell about these quote because it must be happens to us. I through not really good day in office, so much new things and new people, thus much more character to face. But it is not fair if I take a conclusion fastly, whoever know what happen next.

In other case, all the things in my new office was suprised for me personally cause those are out of my expectation.
It could be I have taken too high expectation, could be!
I do not want to guess whatever next honestly, that's only make me too tired..

I wanna to learn to be better human, I believe all the best starting from the little acts.
"Do the little things with the Great Love" said Mother Theresa
I realize it seems like impossible hopes and others tend to make it become such a kidding or joke. I just wanna do all part my life by surrender to My Father Blessing God.
It is not EASY to be human being like God Willing, but I believe He does not asking us to be perfect, cause we never to be it. Otherwise, by all of our weakness we should let God to being us as His children who always need Him anything happens.

This morning I feel His Love, there are so piece and happiness throughout of mine.
Suddenly it remains me about all my faults recent that I did for this week, so much judges, negative perspective, less gratefully, and only said problems.
These made me aware that I much really only based on ego, human ego without looking at His Willing.
I should not to think of, Those were only makes me being stupid man, feel less grateful and blind to see His path which should be happened to me.

I am willing to live happier as His Will, not such a happy like mine.
Hopefully I wish I could life my dreams and purposes. I wanna to be human being who not only life for material and lifestyle. Otherwise, who life to others such as be a source of happy for others life and share all the things which I could hand out, then treat others by loves and cares regardless their background, social class, religion, races, culture and nations.

I believe that to be happier human being, it begins by ourselves firstly. We do not need to ask others to be changes themselves.
It does not mean we wish could changes this world cause it seems like non sense. I personally think, it is only begin by our own surroundings.
For instance, acts our life as if it gonna be the end of life.

All the words above are my own pray and big hopes. I wish I could doing it everyday and through life as well as His Will.
As long as I could breath, I am willing to build my dreams and looking for the real my purposes to life.
As commonly said, we only life for one time and it such a stupid human if only life without make it means.
Life is seems like an empty paper which is written by a good story or not, depend on the actor, and as an actor who is directed by Father Blessing God, it should be that we only doing as appropriate His scenario. Thus, I just doing my roles based upon Him, I hopefully so because basically we are a child of God and we are only His creation who have so much weakness and absolutely we are the sinners till the end of life. By His amazing love, we are saved and to be glorious human being and it never be changed. I LOVE YOU MY FATHER GOD :)

Mengapa Jokowi???

Pertanyan ini seketika memuncak ketika juru bicara tim sukses capres no 2 sekaligus tokoh politik idola saya, bapak Anies Baswedan mengemukakan kalimat ini sebagai bagian dari argumennya. Ketika pertanyaan itu saya tujukan kepada diri sendiri, sungguh itu adalah sebuah pertanyaan yg luar biasa sekaligus sulit. Mengapa sulit? Karna sejujurnya saya tidak pernah menjadi salah satu warga sipil di bawah kepemimpinan bapak Jokowi, jadi otomatis saya belum pernah sekalipun merasakan dampak positif dr beliau.

Ketika KPU mengumumkan 2 pasangan capres yg akan maju di pilpres 2014, awalnya saya tidak tertarik karna jujur tidak satu pun dari keduanya merupakan tokoh politik yg saya kagumi, ya memang tidak tepat kalau saya hanya berpikir secara subjektif.  Walaupun di lain sisi, saya sempat tertarik dengan sosok bapak gubernur DKI Jakarta bapak Jokowidodo tetapi saya bukanlah pendukung partai beliau, itu yg membuat saya agak ragu untuk memilih beliau, apalagi tersebar isu bahwa beliau hanyalah alat dr keinginan orang2 yg ada di belakangnya. Sesaat setelah isu tersebut beredar saya sempat memutuskan untuk tidak memilih siapapun.

Setelah meyaksikan kerja keras kampanye, imbauan dan debat capres sebanyak 5 kali tersebut, saya mulai melihat ada hal yg istimewa pd pilpres 2014 ini, saya melihat bahwa rakyat yg membawa calon pemimpinnya bukan calon pemimpin yg berusaha utk membeli suara rakyat. Begitu banyak masyarakat yg membentuk tim relawan buat beliau, melakukan dgn sepenuh hati tidak terkecuali golongan apapun. Awalnya saya kira hanya orang kecil yg akan memilih beliau karna dy memang sosok yg dekat dgn kaum yg dianggap beban negara, tetapi berjalannya waktu, semua kelompok baik itu dr kaum pendidik sampai penghibur mendeklarasikan dukungannya terhadap beliau. Suatu kalimat "pemimpin rakyat lahir dari rakyat" kalau tidak salah, menjadi kalimat pamungkas yg mulai meruntuhkan kenetralaan saya sebagai warga negara, terlebih melalui media sosial baik televisi maupun internet, ketika memperhatikan dari sisi style kedua calon, saya lebih sejalan dengan sosok beliau yg sederhana dan mampu menjadi pendengar, bahkan bisa bergaul dgn semua kalangan. Gaya blusukannya yg sering dapat cemooh dr sekolompok tertentu sejujurnya memang terlihat natural dan memang seperti itulah yg biasa beliau lakukan. Hal itu terlihat kontras ketika cawapres dr no urut 1 blusukan ke pasaran, terlihat kaku dan penuh dgn setingan, sebaiknya bapak tersebut lbh jujur aja, tidak usah memaksakan diri demi kekuasaan melakukan hal yg tidak pernah dilakukan.

Contoh kecil seperti itu saja membuat saya yakin dengan pilihan saya sekarang, bahwa memang niatan orang baik harus memperoleh dukungan penuh, jarang ada orang baik yg mau terlibat dgn tanggung jawab besar yg dikelilingi oleh banyak musuh.

Kesederhanaan beliau telah memenangkan hati saya secara pribadi sebagai warga negara, sosok yg natural dan sering dikatakan "ndeso" itulah yg membuat beliau terlihat berkarisma. Seringkali kemampuan orasi beliau dijadikan bahan olok2an oleh tim tetangga sebagai kelemahan terbesar beliau bahkan sampai membawa kemampuan bahasa asing beliau. Pilihan kata sederhana yg beliau perlihatkan yg justru memperlihatkan kejujuran yg memang ditujukan hingga kalangan tidak terdidik, bukan sekadar pilihan kata yg bernuansa high class yg sepertinya tidak semua dapat diserap dan seperti biasannya hanya menawarkan "teori kesejahteraan" belaka. Saya suka beliau dgn cara pandang gagasannya, dgn singkat beliau utarakan "kerja kerja kerja"

Semakin yakin 100% bahkan ini kai pertama saya benar2 yakin dgn pilihan pemimpin saya. Belum pernah seexcited ini untuj menggunakan hak suara saya kepada beliau untuk Indonesia hebat.

#ramepilih2 #Jokowi9juli #salam2jari #salamdemokrasi

Semoga pesta demokrasi yg akan disongsong beberapa jam ke depan diberkati oleh Tuhan, hingga dapat berjalan dgn damai dan lancar dan dijauhkan dr tindak kecurangan, Amin!!!!

My story of TOEFL iBT

The first time i've decided to takenToefl iBT test was a few monts ago, particularly since November 2013, i've been studying it for around 8 months till nowdays. May be so many people surrounding me asked why i prefered to study iBT intensivly instead of my education background of bachelor degree is not relate anything with English. Yaa it's right i personaly believe, but is that wrong if decide to learn much more bout it? It appears to me that whatever our major, cannot being the reason of us not to study english, moreover, as a young generation who life in globalized world, in which the most generations are required can speak english. And ability of english speaking is commonly known of people entire the world i think, and generally it is not something special ability for somebody who can speak english even though the fact in Indonesia, whereas. I mean there are still many Indonesian tend to pretend that english ability is not really important, it shows that only a few Indonesia has a good ability of english. And even, most of us tend to having a negative perspective every somebody who try their english ability both by media social and public place. For instance, when i discussed with my friend in english on public transportation, many saw the negative expression, but it didn't make us stopped cause we had the reason to did it. Another case, when i went with my European friend in one of cafe, people there saw me seems like something's wrong, i didn't know why, i only spoke with him, no matter whatever their viewed of me.

According to the iBT case which i discuss above, this time i wanna to share my experience as long as i effort my english ability since a few months ago. As far as i am concerned that TOEFL iBT is the most difficult english examination i've been faced off. Before taken the practice of iBT, i've studied of PBT, another kind of TOEFL, and i would argue that it is less difficult than iBT. Based on my experience, iBT is much more difficult than PBT although both basically have their each difficult case. Till now, i haven't yet get a good score of iBT, am ongoing do a lot practice as often as possible. I already taken the iBT test last March and the score result was bad i think, it was far away from the target score that i should get. It fact shows that even though i've learned english since 3 years ago, it doesn't directly guarantee to having a good ability of TOEFL. I've started to study english from the basic, begun of elementary intoTOEFL, but it didn't make me easier to take a good score. Therefore, i conclude that iBT test is required us to do much more practice and we re supposed to use english regurarly.

I am inclined to believed that the TOEFL iBT is not only demand to having a good grammar knowledge, but also to using english regurarly, even we re required to speak as much as possible with native speaker. Am still practicing now to pursue the target score minimun that commonly asked by many institutions, am absolutetly aware that it's much difficult but it makes me feel challenge to prove that it is possible to getting a good score, and i hope that whoever read this have the same opinion. I'll share my daily practice experience during i prepare of my self. If you wanna to ask something bout the iBT, u can ask me, i'll tell all about it as well as i know based on my experience. Good luck for whoever who re prepare self to take the same test like me!!!

Tuesday, 08th July 2014
Medan
Deasy Sagala

I am Nothing Without Him, really!!!

Having been walked based on my own strenght, i felt that my life is seems like something's empty, i mean only breath but not real life. I already done all things of life without heard His guide for a moment. I thought i could feel better by depending on my self, but the fact whereas, i felt something missing from my life and there was nothing good thing is gonna be happens to me.

But the bad feeling that i described above is commonly happens to us i think because we only human who have much more weakness and i absolutetly aware bout that. Therefore, having known that i am nothing without Him, i need to recheck the way of my life as often as possible. Based on my beliefs, as a human, we need to spend our time to refresh our life, i mean having been done all activities, sometimes we have to take a moment to think of all things that we've done.

It is just my experience which usually happens to me, i only want to share that every i feels bored and tired with life, honestly i never faced only depend on self, if i tried to do it, i didn't get anything that makes me feel better, however, i was disturbed with all of problems without solution. That's why i write here to telling that we are never could face of life alone, i always need His guide, my Lord, nobody of human can makes me better feeling like Him. And now, i wanna back to the place in which i should be, which is in the way of God.

Am so grateful i get a chance to sharing it on my social account like Blog, i hope that it will be useful for whoever who read, i think it's not only happens to me but also many people any where ever been felt like me. God bless us!!!